wine and song

right now, i'm having sake which just taken from Japan last night, and listening the song (someone like you, by Adele). i heard it from Thailand this Oct.

this combination is moody, obviously
so that's why i'm typing.

i dunno why god paves my way like this. all the times it's boring and excited, exciting and bored.
high and low loop.
i do wanna give up but sth back, i do wanna chase sth but i can't reach.
tired.
then the moment would change to be another stressful excitement! i hv nth to say...

ordinary living is what i pursue actually, but why things looping like that? i wonder.
isn't it the 'self' inside controlled by myself? or the rebellion inside me is truly the domain so that's why i work in this industry?

another road is paved for me by somebody else again! that's another good chance to hv another way to work, to learn and to earn.
i dunno if i should thank my fd or god while i'm busy to everything.
'Lucky' can be the word to describe my career, i admit.
meanwhile,
'Unlucky' describes my love story(s)

i want your hug definitely.
but want your sincere hug, which hv you ever had?!
i hv changed a lot since the 6th, or since i hv met you.

thank god paves the way for me with roses
and thanks that the roses have thorns

frankly i'm not satisfied with my living, i do thank god and keep praying.
i hvn't changed ever, yelling but keeping the faith
god, please protect me wherever, whenever, whatever! Amen