ultimately

i was intentionly to drink with you and to be casual last nite
happy moment n nice talking, which disappeared long ago. i was touched by ur warm and supportive sweety hugs! just let the emotion go and enjoy the time, meanwhile i thought nth. nth means nth, i just kept drinking the happy wine with no worry, i mean NONE!
i was wing, but not drunk, definitely i can control it but i let it be. totally enjoy and things then go smoothly, without any embarrassment!!!
hey baby, u surprised me, oppositely! surprisingly it happens, and nth happens while it's happening!!! i doubted!!! how come!!! am i so shit in front of the shitty one?! or any other reasons it may be. i truly can't understand and millions of Why Oh Why!!!
the bubble bursts!!!! the fantasy gone!!!
afterall, it's kind of relief somehow!!! ridiculous!!!!
i know i was wrong, but seems like wrong thing turns me back to the right track!!!! unbelieveable!!! complicated and it is!!!!
how come i come to this?! okie okay, i admit that finally i turn to be the one u model which this is not the real me but the now me! i'm disappointed by myself, however the relief happening contradicts!!!
thanks to the another me in the world! u disclosed me the truth underneath, or sth i hid. and u mildly forced me to face my intention which i couldn't admit it for long, and u surprisingly understand me, to reach somewhere i don't know!!!
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It's oh so quiet
It's oh so still
You're all alone
And so peaceful until...

You fall in love
Zing boom
The sky up above
Zing boom
Is caving in
Wow bam
you've never been so nuts about a guy
You wanna laugh you wanna cry
You cross your heart and hope to die

Til it's over and then
Its nice and quiet
But soon again
Starts another big riot!!

You blow a fuse
Zing boom
the devil cuts loose
Zing boom
So what's the use
Wow bam
Of falling in love

Its oh so quiet
Its oh so still
You're all alone
And so peaceful until...

You ring the bell
Bim ban
You shout and you yell
Hi ho ho
You broke the spell
Gee, this is swell you almost have a fit
This guy is "gorge" and I got hit
There's no mistake this is it

Til it's over and then...
Its nice and quiet
But soon again
Starts another big riot!!

You blow a fuse
zing boom
The devil cuts loose
Zing boom
What's the use
Wow bam
Of falling in love

The sky caves in
The devil cuts loose
You blow blow blow blow blow your fuse
When You've fallen in love

Ssssshhhhhhhh.......
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this is the theme song of my blog actually frankly, am i that much into u? i dunno!